Take Me Away

I cannot find a way
To describe it
It's thereInside
All I do is hide
I wishThat it
Would just go away
What wouldYou do?
You do?If you knew...
What would you do?
All the pain
I thought I knew
All these thoughts lead back to you
Back to what
Was never said
Back and forth
Inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable
Come and take me away
I feel like I Am alone
All byMyself
I need to get around this
My words
Are cold
I don't want them to hurt you
If IShow you
I don't think you'd understand
Cause no one understsands
All the painI thought I knew
All these thoughts lead back to you
Back to what
Was never said
Back and forth
Inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable
Come and take me away
I'm going nowhere
On and on and...
I'm getting nowhere
On and on and...
Take me away
I'm going nowhere
On and on and...
Up and on and
Up and on
All the painI thought I knew
All these thoughts lead back to you
Back to what
Was never said
Back and forth
Inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable
Come and take me away
Take me away
Take me away
Take me away

Life's Dodgy Moments??? 

Wish i Didn't miss u...

Same old story is back again
She's not a lover, she's just a friend
I'm sick and tired for you to blame on me
Now you think it's funny
Now you wanna spend your money on girls
But you forgot when you were down
That I was around
Call my lover, hang up, call again
What in the world is happening
Listen in, but don't yell at me
Isn't it ironic all you wanna do is smoke chronic
Boy, you forgot when you were down
Who was around
I can't eat, I can't sleep anymore
Waiting for love to walk through the door
I wish I didn't miss you anymore
Memories don't live like people do
I'm sick for ever believing you
Wish you'd bring back the man I knew
Was good to me, oh Lord
Everytime you say you're coming
Boy, you disappoint me, honey
How well you forgot when you were down
And I was around
I can't eat, I can't sleep anymore
Waiting for love to walk through the door
I wish I didn't miss you anymore
I can't eat, I can't sleep anymore
Waiting for love to walk through the door
I wish I didn't miss you anymore
One of these days, it's gonna happen to you
Missing a love like I'm missing you, babe yeah yeah
One of these days, when your dreams come true
That's the one that's gonna do it to you
Oh oh oh, yeah, yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah
I can't eat, I can't sleep anymore
Waiting for love to walk through the door
I wish I didn't miss you anymore

My Happy Ending

So much for my happy ending
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
All of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind 

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind....

bought the dvd for the show'Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind'.. I'm telling u, check this show out... I personally feel its really gd... although the plot is like really twisted, the hearterning moments are when Joel (Jim Carrey) realises how much he still loves Clementine (Kate Winslet). As he relives all the memories, good and bad, he realises how much she means to him and slowly trys to stop himself from forgetting her... When left with no choice, he finally accepts his fate... but being a show from Hollywood, as usual, alls well ends well.... Won't mind watching it again... really gd...  kinda think of myself in that situation now... really wish i could erase all the memories the last relationship... but maybe, i'm still remembering it for a reason... be it a lesson or just cruel fate, i guess there is only one thing to do... Suck Thumb and carry on... Met up with Jeremy yesterday and even this guy, who has seen me through most of my worst moments,tells me that i'm still not ok... I know that but i guess Sherlyn is right... I just need more time.... Time to put on that fake smile and hide behind my pillow... Boy do i feel like a mascot....

WAT ARE U STARING AT?!! 

me in southpark... 

ain't he cute???? hehe 

what used to be....... 

Best Job in the world!!!! 

Am i?

Am i really such a lousy person? This questions burns eternally in my mind... having had so many people judge me for who i am , and how well they know me, some tell me that i am not that bad... some tell me that i'm a real asshole and others prefer not to coomment... so how well do peo[;e really know me? why is the human instinct created in such a way that we always judge people by first impressions? hmmm... i believe that is a question only god himself can answer... as for us, the only way we can live with it is eternally wonder if what we are thinking really is the truth or is it all just a facade? Like in a real life "truman show".. hmmm...

Tots..

I've been thinking over the last week now that everything seems to calmed down... maybe so many things that have happened should not have happened at all.. maybe it should... whatever the case is, it sure damn happened for a reason... now to find out what that reason is... it might not always be what we want to hear, but it is the absolute truth... maybe i meant to lose her for a reason... a lesson was taught to me in the process of all that... it might have been a hard pill for me to swallow but it might have been the right one... the insults, the shame, the agony... well, lets just say the cards were laid out on the table for me... and now, after all that, i think i can say i'm glad i survived through all that... am living my days much better now with the support of my frens... but i guess i just can't help the feeling of missing her... its just a feeling i can't fight... i try to avoid it as much as i can but sometimes, i just crumble into it...i guess i'm pretty much as human as everybody else right? anywayz, dun wanna think about it anymore, it ain't gonna go nowhere anyways... so right, i guess its best to leave things where they are right now... just want to apologise to her for everything in the past, be it intentional or not... its not that i'm giving in or anything, but maybe ui'm just trying to find a way to make myself feel better... Time to move forward and look towards a new tomorrow... its the only thing that can be done... "To be content with what we possess is the greatest and most secure of riches. — Cicero"